ThereGoesTheNGHBHD

As you can guess from my drawing style, I am a simp to this vampire twink. I guess the fanfare, clips, and some swagger decided to get my hands on an ita bag as a sign of my fangirling over vampires again. Well I got obsession with vampires had started with reading Anne Rice novels as a tween. Twilight Saga kinda made try to avoid vampires altogether. But doing my DnD corse for almost two years and seeing the popularity of Baldur's Gate 3, how can I not simp? Plus my prefered class is a rogue elf. My Ita Bag will arrive tomorrow. Going to put my plush in it. I'm expecting the pins from Etsy to arrive next week. Also waiting on a face mask I bought off Red Bubble. My Dakimakura cover will arrive next month. So pretty. This is my third one I owe. People tell me that my age, I shouldn't allow folks to bring me down and make me not like stuff because it means I'm simping. Oh. I got a McCree mouse pad and two noodle stoppers from AliExpress. Yeah, I might have sold my

Here is my next venue. I doubt anyone will buy stuff from my store. Plus I plan to make another YingGirl piece exclusively for my shop. https://www.redbubble.com/people/YingGirlMTL/shop?asc=u

That current comic made me realize what a bad mindset I have. Frequently when I feel depressed, I draw blood on my arm from cuts. Arm burns a bit because of my metal allergy. Though, I have a sense that pain makes me feel alive. Because no one wants to be friends with a 40 year old adult who’s fat, depressed, and a hermit who plays video games. I feel ok doing work, but not ok feeling like an insignificant piece of sh*t who just became famous for posting replies to another 40 year old’s crappy Mary Sue comics. Ness and YingGirl are not perfect. I lost friends due to shaming the body positivity fat movement. I thought I can be sorta like be part of the OverWatch community. But I had a tendency for pissing people off, like the Assassin’s Creed fanbase. I really need to see my social worker. But I’ve been avoiding her a lot. I can’t share my work. I think my fanbase just wants me to fail again and make me feel like what’s even the point of gaming? I hope I can get some gaming done