ShopDreamUp AI ArtDreamUp
Deviation Actions
So I was a bit panicky last night while looking on Orioles info on my phone.
There was a protest of another African American killed by police brutality while there was a baseball game going on.
Then it turned ugly with protesters vandalizing Camdem Yards and looting cars.
Fortunately, Mike is all right and the game is cancelled yesterday due to the riots. I'm also surprised on how the Orioles are a good team.
I hope at the end of the week I can get movies I want or watch the New Avengers movie.
I also read on Sho's Twitter about her family not supporting her freelance artist. Wish I could told her the horror stories on how my father ripped my drawings in high school and forced me to take Social Studies in college because I will never be an artist.
Even today, I think 10$ is how much my drawing is worth that much due to not believing I can do better.
I wish my self confidence is better, but in the meantime, I has meds and a social worker.
Until Next Post
-V
There was a protest of another African American killed by police brutality while there was a baseball game going on.
Then it turned ugly with protesters vandalizing Camdem Yards and looting cars.
Fortunately, Mike is all right and the game is cancelled yesterday due to the riots. I'm also surprised on how the Orioles are a good team.
I hope at the end of the week I can get movies I want or watch the New Avengers movie.
I also read on Sho's Twitter about her family not supporting her freelance artist. Wish I could told her the horror stories on how my father ripped my drawings in high school and forced me to take Social Studies in college because I will never be an artist.
Even today, I think 10$ is how much my drawing is worth that much due to not believing I can do better.
I wish my self confidence is better, but in the meantime, I has meds and a social worker.
Until Next Post
-V
Stop Simping for Astarion
As you can guess from my drawing style, I am a simp to this vampire twink. I guess the fanfare, clips, and some swagger decided to get my hands on an ita bag as a sign of my fangirling over vampires again. Well I got obsession with vampires had started with reading Anne Rice novels as a tween. Twilight Saga kinda made try to avoid vampires altogether. But doing my DnD corse for almost two years and seeing the popularity of Baldur's Gate 3, how can I not simp? Plus my prefered class is a rogue elf. My Ita Bag will arrive tomorrow. Going to put my plush in it. I'm expecting the pins from Etsy to arrive next week. Also waiting on a face mask I bought off Red Bubble. My Dakimakura cover will arrive next month. So pretty. This is my third one I owe. People tell me that my age, I shouldn't allow folks to bring me down and make me not like stuff because it means I'm simping. Oh. I got a McCree mouse pad and two noodle stoppers from AliExpress. Yeah, I might have sold my
Red Bubble Site
Here is my next venue. I doubt anyone will buy stuff from my store. Plus I plan to make another YingGirl piece exclusively for my shop. https://www.redbubble.com/people/YingGirlMTL/shop?asc=u
Depression
That current comic made me realize what a bad mindset I have. Frequently when I feel depressed, I draw blood on my arm from cuts. Arm burns a bit because of my metal allergy. Though, I have a sense that pain makes me feel alive. Because no one wants to be friends with a 40 year old adult who’s fat, depressed, and a hermit who plays video games. I feel ok doing work, but not ok feeling like an insignificant piece of sh*t who just became famous for posting replies to another 40 year old’s crappy Mary Sue comics. Ness and YingGirl are not perfect. I lost friends due to shaming the body positivity fat movement. I thought I can be sorta like be part of the OverWatch community. But I had a tendency for pissing people off, like the Assassin’s Creed fanbase. I really need to see my social worker. But I’ve been avoiding her a lot. I can’t share my work. I think my fanbase just wants me to fail again and make me feel like what’s even the point of gaming? I hope I can get some gaming done
Commissions Are Open
So I have getting back into drawing. I would like to get a Samsung Tablet 64GB for my birthday in July. If anyone is interested in my drawings, DM me. Thanks again for following me. -V
© 2015 - 2024 ThereGoesTheNGHBHD
Comments0
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In